Separate but Equal.

The textbooks from my childhood years basically ended with a few token pages towards the end that no one ever really talked about, Gorbechev and the Star Wars program, something about Reaganomics. But the chapter before? The one covering the sixties? We had a unit on that. That was about Martin Luther King.

When you’re a white kid and you learn about the civil rights movement in a small town, and you’ve never met a black person in real life, here is what you learn: Slavery was wrong. Segregated drinking fountains were wrong. Jim Crow laws were wrong. Separate but Equal laws were wrong. Martin Luther King had a dream, and now black people and white people have the same equal protections under the law. We listened to Michael Jackson’s Black or White and nodded; yes, yes. We get it. Thinkin’ about my baby, it don’t matter if you’re black or white.

Teaching history is a tricky thing, because it is imperative to connect the past with the present, to find a way to make what is long buried and distant feel relevant, shape our understanding of the now. And that’s challenging, that’s higher-level thinking than a lot of kids are capable of reaching or some teachers are capable of communicating.

It’s higher-level thinking beyond some adults as well. But I digress.

And so I learned about Rosa Parks and lunch counter sit-ins in the same way that I learned about Paul Revere, Abraham Lincoln, Greek mythology, the three ships of Columbus, what a blacksmith was. History. Facts, to be written on an index card, memorized for a quiz: Harriet Tubman escaped slavery. Andrew Jackson: seventh president, Trail of Tears. In fourteen-hundred-ninety-two, Columbus sailed the ocean blue.

I was in the second grade when crowds engulfed the city of Los Angeles, the biggest riots since the 1960’s, killing fifty-three people. We had learned about Martin Luther King by then. But no one really talked about Rodney King. My best friend knew who he was, sort of: we giggled in the way that children giggle when she told me a story about her grandmother with Alzheimer’s, who conflated “Rodney King” with “Ronald McDonald” while watching the evening news and couldn’t understand why anyone would be so upset about anything involving the clown who invented the McNugget.

When we learned about Separate but Equal, we learned that Separate almost never really meant Equal. We learned that white schools were funded better than black schools – white children got desks and qualified teachers, and black children sat in crowded, filthy classrooms reading hand-me-down books, if they were lucky enough to have books at all. We learned that many of the players in the Negro Leagues were stronger, quicker, better at the game than their white counterparts, and yet paid a fraction of what the white players made.

We took a field trip to see the exhibit of Norman Rockwell’s famous painting, “The Problem We All Live With.” Norman Rockwell, whose name I knew from the framed magazine covers hanging in my basement, inherited from my grandmother: bow-tie wearing doctors inspecting apple-cheeked youths in beanie caps, girls in plaid skirts twirling pigtails with ribbons; dogs and apple pies and milkshakes at diner counters; America.

Except this painting hung by itself, daring to occupy an entire wall, daring you to look closer.

We looked at the girl in the white dress, and we took in the violence of the tomato splatter, the ugliness of the word scrawled on the wall, the shirt cuffs and shined shoes of the men surrounding her. And I, a little white girl, imagined what it might be like to be that little black girl. It’s what the painting asks of you: empathy is the price of admission.

We looked at the black and white photos ensconced in plexiglass frames nearby, photos meant to convey a sense of the time, the framework for understanding the painting. And I looked at them then, and I saw black and white, wire-rimmed glasses, tailored suits and starched dresses: ancient history. How ugly those people were. How embarrassed they would feel now, if they only knew how stupid they looked today.

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And I think about how the Emancipation Proclamation was issued in 1863, a fact I once scrawled on an index card to memorize for a test. We read it aloud in class, pronouncing the strange words tentatively, able to read but not really comprehend:

“The Executive Government of the United States, including the military and naval authority thereof, will recognize and maintain the freedom of such persons, and will do no act or acts to repress such persons, or any of them, in any efforts they may make for their actual freedom.”

And we would look at photos in our history books, snapped one hundred years later in 1963, when the fire hoses were turned on peaceful protestors, police dogs attacking children in the streets. We looked at those images, us little white kids, and thought, How horrible. How horrible it used to be, unaware that during the very week we looked at those images, Los Angeles was in flames, four white police officers walked free, and fifty-three people died in the streets.

There’s a popular image circulating the internet today, as Baltimore burns. It contrasts well-dressed protestors in 1963, peacefully marching through city streets, with Baltimore looters atop a burning car.

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We’ve heard media pundits plea for reason, cry out for peaceful protest in the “tradition of Martin Luther King.” And we forget, because this wasn’t something we wrote on an index card, it’s maybe something we never learned at all, that the man remembered for his peace, for his gentleness, was also angry, was also furious at a system that rendered him both separate and unequal. Who might be remembered for speaking about his Dream, for his Mountaintop, for urging nonviolence above all, but who also said:

“It is not enough for me to stand before you tonight and condemn riots. It would be morally irresponsible for me to do that without, at the same time, condemning the contingent, intolerable conditions that exist in our society. These conditions are the things that cause individuals to feel that they have no other alternative than to engage in violent rebellions to get attention. And I must say tonight that a riot is the language of the unheard.”

And I look at these images from a mere fifty years ago, and I don’t see history.  I see right now.

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And I think about how the chapters of those history books were so neatly compartmentalized: the Civil War, chapter six, turn the page to take a different quiz for Reconstruction, a separate exam for Industrialization, the Roaring Twenties, the Great Depression, the New Deal. I wonder which image that’s currently circulating on Twitter will wind up in the history books, if the protests surrounding #BlackLivesMatter will be taught at the same time as Occupy Wall Street, as the struggle for gay marriage equality, if they’ll all be reduced to the footnote at the bottom of the page or whether they’ll have their own unit, students memorizing names like Trayvon Martin and Michael Brown, answers to a quiz to be studied and forgotten.

I think about the ways we were taught that the battles had been fought and won, that those who stood up to corruption and inequality had already had their nights spent in prison, their flesh torn by dogs and rocks and by fire hoses, had suffered and had overcome. I think about those images of “separate but equal” schoolhouses, and I think about the school in which I learned all of these things, comfortable in my own desk with my own brown-bag lunch, twirling my blond pigtails. I compare that image with the schools in my Philadelphia neighborhood now, many of which have been forced to close their doors in a place where graduation is statistically rare, where teachers are forced to buy their own supplies, where poverty is extreme and hunger is common.

This is separate. This is not equal.

And the battles have been fought and yet the battles continue to need to be fought. Being a human doesn’t come with an owner’s manual, and the logic puzzle of how to create a fair and just society in the world – that’s bigger and more complicated than any human brain can solve, too filled with random chance to ever truly get right, and yet humans fight because it’s part of our attempt to solve it anyway, an ingrained if unfortunate part of our history and our human nature. That we’re all this howling mass of flesh and bone and emotion: born into this world to kick and to claw, to love and to fuck and to cry and to struggle.

I am not asking you, my fellow white people, to set a car on fire, and I am not asking you to go marching into the streets. But I am asking you to attempt to understand why someone else might do those things. I am asking you to consider that the history we learned is not dead and buried, it is alive and we are the ones living it. I am asking you to consider that racism has not ended because of our black president. I am asking you to consider that racism is real, and not contained within in the pages of our fifth-grade history textbooks.

I am asking you to think before you take to the internet, before you condemn without imagining, before you pass judgement without thought. I am asking you to study your history, by which I mean: learn about the problems that sparked the protests, rather than focus on the results. I am asking you to consider that decades of poverty and discrimination and disenfranchisement in our country are the very real descendants of the institution of slavery, of separate but equal laws, of Jim Crow and voter disenfranchisement and housing discrimination. I am asking you to consider this idea with empathy.

I am asking you to consider how you’d like to be remembered, when we are all dead and buried, our bones graying into further ash, when children look back at our own images, so foreign and ancient to their eyes, and marvel at how it used to be, and wonder at its strangeness, at how much the world has changed.



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124 thoughts on “Separate but Equal.

  1. To be different, then attacked, terrorized. I’m an old white man, the only black citizens where I come from were respected, owned businesses, part of the community, trusted. But- one summer I worked my ass off baling hay, became black from the waist up and was treated different.
    Force is the only language “authority” understands (borrowed from another blog – thank you)
    Why is this so pathetic? A few shit of the Earth cops think they have authority? As an analysis person, I’d consider this behavior a distraction from activity really awful.

  2. Pathetic, but i believe things will change so soon and are definitely even changing already, because sooner or later,They will realize that all people are equal.

  3. This is so well written. I’ve been struggling to find the words to express exactly this on my own blog and to my own friends and family. I’m sharing this, because too many people forget that MLK was right: A riot IS the language of the unheard.

  4. Brilliant writing! Thank you for so eloquently putting into words what a lot of us feel, but are incapable of putting on the page!

  5. Great words and great quote from MLK. People will try to improve their conditions in any way that they know how. It’s like when we suspend kids from school for violence instead of asking them what made them feel the need to be violent?

  6. Respectfully, you have done what you set out to condemn. You have made separate but not equal groups. Do the owners of the building and cars set ablaze not have the right to live in peace? Do their lives not matter? I have family in the Baltimore police who is not racist and lives a good life. We fear for his safety. Does his life matter? What allows the rioters the right to destroy innocent people’s property? Who pays for that? The innocent?

    This blog, though very well written, doesn’t support equality. It supports turning the tables and giving the rioters more freedom than those they endanger.

  7. This is great. I dare say, however, that asking is almost too polite in today’s time. People need to realize everything that you’re saying, and we are past the point of etiquette. Thanks for the great read.

  8. Very sad that people can’t connect the past to the present. The past is not some isolated thing that has no effect on the future, but instead drags itself into the present day. We are still in the era of Civil Rights.

  9. This is so powerful, I’m just about to finish my school topic on USA 1929-2000 we spent months on the American Dream and then on the end of segregation but your blog made me think and what I thought about confused me, I live in the UK and I’d like to think racism is almost non existent, we have united as a country and the government along with society have found a new cause to fight, whether we agree with the ideology of these politics is not even a cause for concern, This post is remarkable, and I’ve fallen in love with your blog, thank you, Lucy x

  10. Ma’am, this was an amazing post. A most eloquent plea for understanding and change in America. I live here: and I invite all to take a peek if you are so inclined. When the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King was killed, the westside of Chicago (where I lived) exploded like many cities across America. Tanks rolled in my neighborhood; I had to confront them and troops armed to kill trying to get home with my family. My young family frightened to death of the flames, the crack of gunfire ringing around us; me arguing with a Sgt. that I lived in there; in there where my neighbors were fighting and dying because they felt that if “our” disciple of peace (and at the time, Dr. King was assigned to only us), then we stood no chance in America. Imagine how painful that was; the deep hurt that was unleashed. 350 years of living in America, and we were (and in many ways still are) unwanted; discarded with lies, myths, deceit about who and what we are; what we are worth.

    That was my second riot. The first happened in St. Louis regarding the integration of Beaumont High school. I was 13 at the time. Only the Black kids were arrested, even though White kids were the ones mad about going to school with us N***gers.

    My third riot, (no my 4th, I forgot about the Democratic Convention Chicago Police riot in Grant Park; truly awful, truly awful; I was there) was the one you have mentioned involving Rodney King.

    A comment to “into the mild,” I disagree with your comment about “piggybacking,” many of us who lived history up close and personal can fill in some blanks; provide some context – present another aspect of our history that needs to be told. For example: a White Catholic nun saved me from jail, arguing vehemently that her assailant was fat, bald and tall. At the time, I was slim, short and had a fro. It didn’t stop the beating, though, because they were pissed. That nun was not going to lie for them. So yes, I have shamelessly invited any who would like read some factual history to link to my blog. I am thrilled when I can do the same and discover wonderful, committed folk like this woman. Thank you for allowing me to comment.

  11. I remember everything in history having to be taught in such a fast pace that I would spend my homework time for history trying to figure out the what, where, when, who and how of all the historical facts from world war two until the Vietnam war

  12. “I am asking you to consider that the history we learned is not dead and buried, it is alive and we are the ones living it. I am asking you to consider that racism has not ended because of our black president. I am asking you to consider that racism is real, and not contained within in the pages of our fifth-grade history textbooks.” Perfect. So eloquently said.

  13. expression comes in many different forms. writing is a talent. this person has it, and I thank her for being able to express what to many people can not and share with the world what to many people don’t know. this piece deserves more than an ENCORE…a standing ovation. anyone who reads this post needs to share it on all media platforms because this is the world we live in, and the world needs to know. thank you again from the bottom of my heart for writing this piece.

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  15. I understand that #BlackLivesMatter represents racial inequality but the wording feels like it only targets to blacks.. And now white cops are seen to be the culprit in the media. There seems to be a hatred all around. People just love to pay attention to bad news in America. What fucked up media to get our attention. Why does it seem to be paid attention now? To me, it just seems to be getting worse and worse. I don’t know how this could be resolved but we are not tackling the causes. We have lost it, chaos all around the news. I don’t think violence will solve our problems.
    Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
    -Martin Luther King, Jr.
    I understand that our world cannot be perfect, but we could make it the way most of us want it.

  16. Girl, if your mind is not pure regarding this reality, take my freedom of speech now! Your truth has done more than provide a good read. It has opened my mind to never giving up on this fight for equality. There are so many voices unheard and we must make these issues seen. Look beyond whats happening because its not just happening… it happened and on a continues path its still happening! When will we see the glass behind the window that we see straight thru but constantly miss…

  17. Such a great article that really puts everything that’s happened recently into perspective. You’ve given a voice to the idea that so many of us believe is true – Separate but Equal isn’t a thing of the past, it’s with us right now.

  18. This is an incredible piece. Thank you for writing it. Separate but Equal isn’t behind us. It’s still sitting right in front of us.

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  20. I love this piece! And if it’s coming from a girl like myself, a “black” in the heart of Nairobi, Kenya lying next to her “white” boyfriend, you know it is heartfelt. I’m so color blind so to speak, all I care about is humanity everything else to the negative effect is just a little too much pettiness for my liking! Great piece!

  21. I appreciate your views on this topic. The images you used in this articles are heart warming and explaining the topic the best.

  22. I loved your post. But I do think that when we are woken to this injustice, we NEED to stand up against it. We need to protest, to visibly show others that we see the injustice and are not accepting it. If we do nothing we are as bad as the oppressor. Just not fighting against the protestors is not enough, we need to stand with them in whatever way we can.

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